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Friday, March 4, 2011

It's been so so long since i last posted, and thousands of things have happened ever since. Many were of sorrows compared to happy times. Hearts were broke, tears were formed.

I did not even know Leon posted on our private blog till today. It was from last year december, and now do I realised how much pain i had given him. Till today, i guess he still feels pain and i .. on the other hand is living my life with other guy.  When i read what you posted, i really feel like crying. Till this date, idk if you still care for me like before. But i know you've long given up hope in us.

God was unfair to have given me two guys who treats me so well, but yet i do not know how to appreciate them. Leon is one, Wil is another. I guess after leon, i do not dare to fall in love again? I cant bring myself to love Wil, or any other guys anymore.

Seriously, my life is pretty much fucked up like before. I said i want to change, but did i ever change? Idk, i seriously dk what i want in life anymore. Everything is so messed up. Im trying to be free, but yet im afraid to go solo. 

I really want my old life back, i want it so fucking bad ..